cold stormy night.. perfect weather to snooze in..
and here i am sitting on the couch at 3am refusing to end the day once again,
(though just abt an hr ago i told myself i have to sleep earlier when i saw my terrible eye rings in the shower)

surprisingly, through an almost packed n eventful weekend, i dont feel sleepy one bit.
instead, i feel awake, peaceful and relaxed,
with the wind blowing my hair dry,
my legs crossed and tucked in, warmed by my laptop

right at this moment, i thank God for the peace which He s given me, peace that surpasses all understanding =)

though somewhere in the recesses of my brain, depressing thoughts about school are probably churning away, threatening to take over any time..

right at this moment.. i know God is here with me and i know i can overcome these negative emotions
Amen.

" Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us" Rom 8:37

one more week of holidays to go... =)... and it will be all good..
i shall not waste one bit of it mulling over school and the work that is set before me
(well maybe just for one hour on sunday night? =p)

the past 2 weeks have passed almost in a flash..
before i forgot all i ve done, i think i should list down whatever i can remember
so i can look back and say
"i had a really great holiday!"

(not in chronological order)
1) Daryl's House moving
2) Kristy's Housewarming and sleepover
3) Enjoyed 2 1/2 great reads (in the midst of my 3rd book)
4) Baking Session at Esther's with the girls
5)Catch up with Charlotte
6) Late night ktv with CG
7) Cable car ride (where i thought i should write my will)
8) Chilling out at some restaurant/bar place on mt faber
9) Late night scrabble-ing and movie-ing at michelle's and sleepover
10) attempt at cooking something new for CG ("caramelized chicken wings")
11) Visit to aaron's place =)
12) swimming session with CG girls

and 2 impt areas where my mind s been renewed
1)learning to love and see people through God's eyes
2) really trusting God for a victorious life =)





♥ ( 2:55 AM ) ♥


i went for dinner with my grandma and uncle's family today
and after i helped my grandma down the stairs to the foodcourt,
our arms relaxed but we did not release our hand grips
and hand in hand, we walked to a table in the middle of the place

it felt so nice, as we walked together.. like we re best friends
a 22 yr old and a 80 yr old =)
the closeness of our hands clasped in each other just seemed so weird ( i guess since i dont usu hold hands with ppl) yet so strangely familiar like it's the most natural thing to do
it felt really good, even as ppl from the other tables stared at us

i love my grandma =)

♥ ( 11:55 PM ) ♥


oh gosh half my holidays are gone.. just like that...
the weekend will be here before i know it... then the next weekend... then...
i ve got to stop my ridiculous late sleeping late waking schedule(do ignore the time of this post)
to tune my body clock(if it ever existed) back to early rising mode(repeat: if it ever existed)

hmm i ve been spending the wee hours of the past few days reading though... just cant seem to stop reading until i cant peel my eyes open anymore.. =p.. and i totally enjoyed the 2 books, namely the dogs of babel and Marley and Me..
the first was a rather dark one for me...
while Marley and Me...somehow i cant seem to begin to talk about it.. except that i really want to keep a dog, yet i do not want to have to deal with its eventual death.. hmmm
anw.. Marley is really cute.. heh.. i so want to catch the movie when it comes out!

i cant believe i watched Boys Over Flowers today.. it was a waste of 6bucks to say the least.. and the F4 in the show were not really drool-worthy, the girl was quite cute though
had a really good catch up with Charlotte though.. =)
a great day completed with desserts and shopping(now im truly broke =/)

Plan for the remaining holidays..
PLAY as much as i can.. READ more books.. SLEEP more... PRAY more.. and i guess... study a little?.. realise all my notes are in school though.. ugh.. which means i have to find a day to go back to get them =(

♥ ( 11:35 PM ) ♥


my first post.
well... thought it s time for a new blog =) a new start
i ve been looking for a new skin for more than an hour.. and this is what came up..
i fiddled with the html till i thought i was going crazy.. now i think i may actually be a genius at it heh
im still missing my old skin.. it was so pretty with a photo in sepia of some wild flowers leaning towards the sun
but this is not bad as well.. love the flowers too =)..
haha i think i just have a weakness for flowers eh

i realised i need a paradigm shift in the way i think
i need to clear out the bad, the negative and the pessimism in me
God has redeemed me and all things are made new the very day i ve accepted Him as my Lord and Saviour
yet it has taken so long for me to realise that i did not fully carry out that faith of a victorious life with God (which brings to mind that my bible study in Victorious Living has been put on hold indefinitely =p)

I just read a book The dogs of Babel (courtesy of Strawberry1) and it is in short a love story of a man and his wife. (Spoiler ahead so do not continue if you're planning on reading it yourself)
They shared a really great love for each other and a relatively good marriage, and yet the wife chose to kill herself in the end. It was really due to her lack of self-worth, self-doubt, depression that brought about this end. And the scary thing is i could see myself in her as i read the book. So it really drove the point across in me that i have to change the way i think.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope " Jeremiah 29:11

=) i know my God has a perfect will for me

♥ ( 1:19 AM ) ♥