indo was really good =)... had loads of fun plus it was really relaxing
n i agree with eve it wouldnt be as fun if not for the ppl who went

i miss the cool mountain air.. the villas ( though not the haunted part and the eerie bathrooms) the trampoline and the swings in the lawn..
willy s really nice house and his really warm family..
the great cg meeting w a strong presence of God
the cool river water during river rafting...
the whole relaxed atmosphere of a holiday
and of cos the safari! (thanks so much to willy and the rest for accomodating to the idea)

i miss the elephants (teetee and windy and the one i rode on) and the lion cub i took a picture with on my lap(i wish i found out his name).. i wanna bring them home

been doing nothing much since coming back though..

sunday was church and family
family dinner was good.. =) i wish it ll be like that more often (trying not to be greedy)

monday was settling admin stuff for my employment + haircut + dinner with mr L

the admin stuff was supposed to be done by last wednesday.. which i only realised, to my horror, upon returning on saturday.. =p.. thankfully i am still going to be employed even though i was 5 days late in submission

haircut was horrible... no more fringe.. i look like a twit now boo

dinner was okay and yoshi is now gone.. =/ ..
sigh i really miss yoshi
and i ve decided.. not going to do anything anymore

tues was a totally bummed out day... i refused to wake up till 3pm!... then spent the rest of the day finishing my 2nd book from the library...
Pocketful of Names
ah it s really one of my favourites now... one of the few books that made me cry, not just tear
i ll buy it if i chance upon it

i spent the entire day shopping today... woke up at 8 plus!..just cos of mango sales
k n i blew 200 bucks..
but i spent it on work clothes ok.. not fun clothes...
nonetheless retail therapy is strangely an awesome drug..
im just so happy with my buy that i pull out every piece to show my grandma...
and then when my cousin came over, i showed him as well
haha

anw my sister says im an introvert cos i can go shopping alone

*****
names... more than a word or a noun
once we name something/someone..
there is immediately an emotional attachment..
a sense of familial belonging

a rock will just be another rock in this world,
until you give it a name
and then it belongs to you

and so we live .. carrying on our backs
all the rocks we've given a name to

(this philosophical moment is probably inspired by the book)

*****


and i dont even want to recall
for the sweetness of the memory
is only but ephemeral
the void in its wake
only brings forth more ache

♥ ( 1:46 AM ) ♥


There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart,

our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving

Love is the answer, at least for most of the questions in my heart,
like Why are we here? And where do we go?And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing,
it's always better when we're together

=) i love jack johnson s songs


it was great going out with XX n joseph, meeting up with my pri sch mates and NaNa!... shall blog abt these n post some pictures up another time...

meanwhile.. loads of errands to run tmr... boo... = /

♥ ( 1:02 AM ) ♥


i wish i can blog about how happy i am that i ve finally finished my exams,
how relieved i am about surviving the most stressful period of my life thus far
how ecstatic i am about my 1 month holidays with the freedom to do whatever i wish

i wish i have the mood to blog about how God has been so good to me this period... how He brought me through with a mighty hand... how He sustained and uplifted me
and once again performed a miracle that i passed my exams..

i wish i have the mood to blog about mel and esthero and mr. L and eve n yuka n keith, daryl, esther eeyore and many others whom im most grateful to for support, encouragements, prayers, cards, gifts etc. and post up many wonderful photos

i wish i have the desire to read the books i ve bought and borrowed today with my usual hunger to read them from cover to cover


but somehow i just feel im in the doldrums...

when i was a student... i was bound by school and assignments and exams...

to grow up.. to be an adult...is to have new responsibilities, burdens and expectations from others
where my life used to be so sheltered... im now thrown into the open sea of reality
- the complicated world of adults, of jealousy strifes, maliciousness, lies, mercenariness, selfishness and whatnots..

why cant adults be more simple?

and somehow though i only but have a whiff of the saltiness in the air

i already feel suffocated...

and joy is just sucked out of me


and here comes my instinct to run away and hide

to escape into my own world

where the sky is a perfect blue


"If you were to say to the grown-ups: “I saw a beautiful house made of rosy brick, with geraniums in the windows and doves on the roof,” they would not be able to get an idea of that house at all. You have have to say to them: “I saw a house that cost $20,000.” Then they would exclaim: “Oh, what a pretty house that is!” "
- The little prince -

n i lift all these to You, my Strength and my Song,
my Healer and my Provider

♥ ( 12:31 AM ) ♥


monday 1st june- mr L
tues 2nd june - ws
wed 3rd june - mel
fri 5th june - esthero

sunday 7th june- my turn to go on holiday!

but till then... guess i ll busy myself with lotsa catch up with old friends and bury myself in books so i ll not let my mind wander too much

whilst not forgetting to be looking into my mailbox =)...

a postcard perhaps? heh...


meanwhile i spent today at home learning how to play the piano...
man.. it s so hard to switch from C major to G7 chord and back again...
i practised till my fingers hurt... n still not v good at it.. = / piano is really hard work..
plus i really suck at sight reading


i smell much changes in the air.. n i do not like them...
looks like i gotta move back home sooner than i thought... =(
i ll really miss my grandma... n how peaceful it is here

but i guess the one thing u cannot run away from is your family
and you shouldnt as well..
need to pray for courage and strength...
to be the change i want to see in my family

♥ ( 11:56 PM ) ♥